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day 10:
overslept. again. work...work...work... had some alone time. appreciated.
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day 10:
overslept. again. work...work...work... had some alone time. appreciated.
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day 9:
“OMG, I have overslept”... the first words of mine for today or the worst words one can say in the morning... actually yeah, I had one and a half hour to get ready but I really wanted to wake up much earlier to be able to do a longer yoga, to have more time to think about the day ahead and have my morning coffee without any hurry. left the house with the thought that I will be back not earlier than 13 hours and it made me a bit scared. here comes the yellow screen with these words on it “one eternity later”. I came home with so much energy that one would wish to have even in the mornings.
it turned out I like teaching. the energy I get, the freedom I have can't be compared with anything else. especially when you have cool students who truly appreciate your effort.
so the fourth job is there. I am more than happy about it. if you wonder why just, please, open my last blog.
apparently people like going to work, doing nothing and leaving. sometimes, when they get tasks, you can hear expressions like: “should I do all of these?” and yeah, you wonder “what did they expect when they applied for the job?” meh...humans :D
doesn't matter... the weather is getting warmer and as Metallica says “Nothing else matters...”
I really hope you are doing well. (:
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day 8:
Well hello there February!!!
the more you are trustworthy the more they trust you and the more you are lost in the pile of tasks. meh, I love it... the busier you are the less you have time and room in your brain to fill it with nonsense...so, yeah, no complains, this is what I needed.
the day started with the last session of the yoga journey: 50 minutes of yoga without any instructions, just perfect music, me and my breath... I had no doubts that the day was going to be a terrible one so yeah, took the chance to feel those moments and to appreciate the peace I had in the morning.
the only thought that had played in my mind is “people are weird, get used to it”. never gonna even waste time on thinking about the unreasonable and illogical steps they make. just get used to it. they are people.humans. too humans.
so got a new job offer. sure, taken. why wouldn't I? never forget “the busier you are the freer your mind is”. really excited about it, cuz it starts away from tomorrow.
apparently English is the language I speak more during the day. yes, kind of unusual for me. but I kind of even miss German. today asked one of my coworkers to speak German to me. (:
I had an English lesson in the evening. My student is keeping telling me awesome stories about the most interesting topics. Today she was speaking about trains. OMG Sheldon would be so happy about it. The busiest train station is in Japan. OK, I would never want to be there, like ever. I hate crowds. I even was hesitating about going to a concert in a club. I like having people in my life in introverted limited number.
the evening is kind of sad. I would say it's too gloomy. nervous. or maybe tired, or disappointed. I'll just go to sleep. #Monday is gone (:
have you noticed how much I use the words like: hate, terrible, sad in my blogs? please don't pay attention to that (I have just flagged it and now asking not to pay any attention) whatever, I just pour all the thoughts here, I can assure you they are not in my soul. I don't feel them. I don't let those words in. Deep in my soul I have such a tranquility...
have a good night a yeah:
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day 7:
it sounded like one of famous juices: J7
have never liked Sundays: too much pressure to manage to do the things you haven't done the whole week and things you won't be able to do the next week. and people expect that you will visit them, and you have to and you do...
tomorrow is the last day of my yoga journey (I mean only this one, that lasts for 30 days) and I'm more than excited about it. the new project of ours is going live tomorrow and lots of bugs are expected. so yeah, it's gonna be a MONDAY!!!!
hah, looking forward to my first salary :D such a simple thing to be happy. gonna waste it :D wanna drink these days? DM me.
anyway, visiting young families makes me think about my possible one. and the more I see Armenian families, the more I wanna have a cat and stay alone :D I am either too pessimist or too perfectionist. and you say I'm just afraid...kind of yeah..maybe... ugh forget it.
was thinking of learning to drive, but the traffic in Yerevan is notoriously bad. two car crashes at 11:00PM, too many signals, too much disrespectful attitude... I can't stand that. Taxis are gonna be the solution I guess. let's just skip discussing buses and minibuses... OK?
gonna write an Armenian blog today! if you are interested: I will wait for you @ syuneci.am too.
(I couldn't remember the B-day of my blog and it makes me sad. there are things that should not be forgotten, but I do, I always forget...)
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day 6:
we are just listening to “Englishman in New-York” and while she is making some salads for our tomorrow's dinner, I am writing to you. hi.
reality sucks. we all knew that. but that's the life. so, after all we have to be back to the reality. we all have to face it. cuz, again, that's the life.
today's yoga says “trust me, everything is as it should be”. I do wanna trust. it's easier to believe that everything is as it should be and you have no way to change it, to reset it...you have to accept it.
the Saturday felt like a Monday because of lots of work I had to do. again. not my job. someone else's. people like to take advantage of you I mean of me.
then we had tea. girls' tea evening. laughed and cried a lot. yeah. girls. apparently my ability of crying is back. not bad. at least a good news.
started a new TV-show. hope it's a good one. so I won't have to watch the old ones over and over again. no matter how much I love them, all of them have associations and yeah, hurts :D
she says that sometimes I look in the air and do nothing for like 30 seconds or more. she has noticed that a few times today. growing up here, folks!!!
so much about the last #Saturday of this awful January. OMG, such a positive person am I !!!
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մեր միջավայրը մեզ մերժումա մենք էլ միջավայրին
հայկն ասումա՝ ոնց որ ոչ մեկս հայ չլինենք․․․ես էլ պատասխանում եմ, որ մի տեսակ խեթ ենք նայում մեր միջավայրին։ պետք է որ միջավայրը մեզ ձևավորեր, կամ մենք՝ միջավայրին։ պետք է որ մի ձև, մի թելով առնվազն կապված լինեինք․․․մենք չենք գտնում կապ, մեզ տարօրինակա, մեզ անսովորա, մենք ուրիշ ենք, մենք ձեզ պես չենք։
միշտ կողմ եմ եղել բազմազանությանը․ դե գոնե չձանձրանալու համար։ իմ առօրյայում էդ բազմազանությունը մի տեսակ տարօրինակա ընդունվում։ օրինակ դե լսում եմ՝ տուրիստ, սփյուռքահայ, ստեղից չես ու մտածում եմ՝ չեք ուզում ձեզանից լինեմ, չեմ լինի, կասեմ՝ հա, ուրիշ եմ։
ինչ֊որ բառերից տարօրինակ են նայում, ինչ որ գույներից խուսափում են ու չեն ընդունում ազատությունը, չեն ընդունում նորը։ չեմ նեղանում, զարմանում եմ։ բայց հա, նեղացնում են։
պարում են երկու տղա ու էդ իմ համար շատ սիրունա, ու թեկուզ որ պարում են երկու աղջիկ, հա, սիրունա։ իմ միջավայրի մարդկանց համար դա տաբուա։ ես երևի սխալ միջավայրում եմ։
ես երևի չմնամ։
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day 5:
ok...writing you a bit drunk, so yeah, wait for some too honest lines..
I had the most weird dream today: I was the god for one day. I was to decide if someone's dream comes true or not. and yeah, as always: I just approved everything. everyone's dreams should come true. always. people have to smile.
work was like...awful...terrible....maybe we don't like the pressure...I kind of do. but I hate working for someone else. I like doing my tasks. helping is not bad. but it's not acceptable to work instead of someone.
okay... forget about it...the evening was nice and sweet and crazy and confused. don't wanna talk about it.
bye...
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day 4:
guess what: I am having tea again. herbal tea, yeah.
it was a terrible Thursday. like an awful one. apparently misunderstanding is the core of the problems. I hate becoming vague tasks. I need to hear what is expected from me when and how. and when I finished the job I was sad-looking tired. i don't like it when I can't hide the fatigue.
fortunately she had cooked very delicious supper and he had brought beer !
the book I finished today was too depressing. I was in the bus and I couldn't help crying. I cried in the bus.
but a little dream came true. I interviewed a girl for a vacancy we have at the office. I was free to ask the questions, to chose how to find out if she is the one we are looking for. and I asked how she differs her days from each other. I wanted to hear what she does every day for the first time. she didn't have any answers for me. I guess she was a bit...nope very confused.
anyway I don't understand people who don't have hobbies and don't have another inner world out of their routine... I just thought about my hobbies...
I was playing with Rubik's cube when he asked me to teach him one day. I promised. she was jealous, as always. I didn't care. I only remembered the days when mum was teaching me the steps to bring all the colors to their right places.
wouldn't consider the day the best one. meh... usual one.
usual #Thursday
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day 3:
there is a herbal tea and dry fruits on my table...
the morning was a terrible one. I hate it when my bad dreams come true. I am even kind of afraid already. Hopefully everything seems to be OK now.
Today's Yoga session was called “Love”. The whole meaning is that one should love himself/herself and then share that love with others. Breath love in and breath love out... <3
Had a before work walk mixed with English lesson. Loving it. My “student” is always watching relevant and interesting documentaries and we discuss them...Today's topic was “the foreigners in Japan; expectations and reality”. The only thing I remember is that apparently foreign women are not lucky in Japan, they kind of stay unnoticed and alone, Japanese women are too beautiful... hah :D
The work was not bad. The team is funny (I mean they laugh at my jokes and I really appreciate it)
What a nice surprise! Met one of my childhood friends. Haven't met for like ... ages? She is working in the HR of a big factory. The main coworkers are in their 40s, so yeah... gossiping and taking advantage of her is an inseparable part of the work... (remembering the past)
One of my online friends remembered me today! a nice surprise. it turns out we are on the same Time zone finally. He has moved to Dubai from India. (: welcome!
this was my #Wednesday
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day 2:
would you have some herbal tea? *** so, apparently, there is at least a song for every feeling you could possibly have. did you know that? hmm... that was the best discovery of the day.
other than having calls on and on, the job was OK, actually better than OK! It's good when someone appreciates the effort you make.
The second job sucks. Whenever you find a minute to have some rest: “ping, we need this article” “ping, we have a message and you haven't notice/answered”. But yeah, wanna have some extra money?-then work! (ugh, c'mmon, as if it wasn't the thing you wanted: keep the mind as busy as possible)
So, I had planned to have a walk after work and take some photos, but yeah, what a surprise, was too tired and just headed home. OK, went to the grocery first. (that's my favorite type of shopping). and guess what, again was called a western Armenian (դուք երևի սփյուռքահայ եք հա՞) just because I told them I am gonna try to make hummus and bought some peas. (if I were a western Armenian, I would not TRY to make hummus, I would just make it :D )
Gonna buy a t-shirt and print on it: “made in Armenia, since 1995”. So I won't have to answer the questions about me being Armenian and 25.
so much for #Tuesday.
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